Week 8, 9, 10 | Wednesday | October 2

First thing, I still receives phone calls asking for my new blogs, I'm sorry but my brother had his knee surgery and I have to take care of him the whole week. 

On 22nd of September, I added another year in my age which I clearly stated, I didn't celebrate. I don't like celebrating some occasion, in that part. Birthday is one on my list. I received a gift from my mates and Im very grateful about it. It's 10 Billion and The Abundance of Katherine from my favourite author John Green. I finished 10 Billion after 3 hours reading now, Im busy. I dont even have time to finish the Abundance of Katherine. It was nice that I have time now, I can now talk to you all. I also received another gift Under The Dome from Stephen King. Im excited to finish the one Im reading now so I can start with it. It was as thick as bible. Also one of the reason I haven't writing blog for a weeks now is, I started to write my second book, well first if you consider my book that wasn't publish that i actually left in the Philippines. I remember Stephanie Mayer created Twilight Saga from her dreams, so I decided to put my Dreams and Imaginations and Real life into a book and make a story out of it. I don't have to put a very very long talk but my dreams are difficult, it often have continuation so I took the liberty of using it as a skill.

Also, I decided that Im going back to FIFO life, but I dont want to cook anymore, I already had enough really so I might just do something that I think I might excel, I don't know but it seems more smart way of doing it.

That's all as I will put this blogging idea into my book too. 

Nigel TV.

xx

Week 8 | Saturday | September 14

Today, I went to freo for something cool, then I got all furious and started thinking where really my life is going ? Am I really sure going back to uni will bring my life into the right direction of life? Is it really my path of living?

My mates talked to me and I told him, I want to do something that will put my tombstone into the history. I mean, I want to be journalist because it's dangerous and challenging, It doesn't mean that I wanna die because if I do, I would've taken it easily but not really, It's just that job has to have lots of guts to gather informative information. For me, It's like people might like it or not but once you posted something to show everyone the real story behind everything, you'll have enemy that for sure won't be happy seeing you walking in the pavement with a smile in your face. They said murderer, their, drug dealer still go to heaven. Those who goes to hell are those people who took their own life and if I die because of being honest in my job, I would love people to think if Im going to heaven because I told a very honest story that changes everything or if Im going to hell because what I did was good but it seems like I buried myself alive for what I have done. When I was young there is 2 person I wanted to be. (1) The one who runs his own kitchen,  or (2) a journalist who tells the truth. I love talking and using my mind but in the kitchen I don't use 2 things that I love, my grandma told me I should be a news reporter as I love  to talk and read and share what I have read. I thought it was a brilliant idea to pull over some strength. I now needs a job that will suit my uni life, Im going back to Uni, if this still don't change my direction in life, well, I have no one to blame because I tried but still I'll keep trying.

Today, As I was walking in Perth, I saw a mate begging for Money and also homeless. She hasn't talked to us since she told us she's pregnant, She is kinda egoistic and a bitch. I asked her why she didn't tell us. She said she knew who she was and we probably hated her, well I have to agree with her but I have to help her not because she needs us and she got kicked from her parents house for being pregnant and not knowing who's the father at the age of 21, but because she is my friend. So I called everyone we knew and told them the situation. We all tipped in money and put it in my bank account. I'm not gonna be begging you money because you're my reader, Im not gonna ask you money for giving you the pleasure to read. I just bought her stuff from grocery and it will be delivered to her tomorrow even she don't need it because she has things in the Pantry, I can't bring her to my house as all rooms are occupied, so I decided to step my foot down and call Nate. He is the only person I know that is willing to help with nothing to expect. Fortunately he said yes. I know to myself he will. I hope everything will goes well for her. To my mates, I want to thank you for tipping in money for her, It was a big help, also Nate thanks for always being there not just for me but to everyone else. You've been such an amazing mate to all of us.

Mum told me she'll treat me dinner on my birthday and I was like. Veal Cheeks until she said FREO which probably means FISH AND CHIPS. I don't eat seafood and she'll treat me FISH and CHIPS, maybe there's a possibility that there might be Veggie and Chips.haha.

Anyway, I gotta go now.

bye
nigeltv

Week 7 | Saturday | Sep 7

I'm sorry, I went through a tough time this week, mum had her Kidney surgery last tuesday and she is not going well as she had an infection and we might bring her back to the hospital to be admitted.

I'm happy though because my employer held my payroll for a month for some problem, I have been unpaid for a month which is stupid and I can't work with that kind of employment that they'll give me money whenever I want and how much I want, for christ sake Im 21 and I need excess money not allowance and they are pissed off about me with my new work attitude but I guess that's what you get if you don't pay your employee the right time, I asked for payslip for months but still hash't got it, I'm looking for a new job though as I'm officially going back to Uni, This job/hospitality is not for me, well it is but not to be a serious career. I don't know maybe just because my employer wasn't good when it comes to managing, they want me to manage the restaurant but they do what they want and never listened, they thought they knew everything. I actually got pissed because they tried to talked me out of not eating fish anymore because I had a bit of issue about the Fukushima chemical affecting the fishes on Northern Hemisphere, I read everything about it and 10 scientist agreed that it's spreading through water and land and they thought Im dumb, well I just don't want to say in 5 years "I should've stopped eating seafood". Or maybe because I wasn't paid for a month.


It's September 7 today, it means Election day in Australia. Time when we chose who'll lead the country and we'll try to contribute for our countries either Success or Failure. I have a friend who made a guide who to vote in election.

Guide for Election 

Click on the link as it will actually help if you haven't voted yet or if your in different country, James Rendell here has a lot of brilliant point of view to be carefully take measure before you choose who you wanted to lead the country of yours. Just remember it's not just your one day obligation as a voter but a lifetime obligation as you were about to be a part of a historical moment for your country.


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Week 6 | Tuesday | August 27

Hey guys, It's been more than 10 days since the last time I opened my blog. I'm sorry I'm just really busy but this blog which some of my reader already thought that "Good Things must come to an end" It won't, I promise :) Well, It's been so long but nothing drastically happened except last night which you'll be able to know later.


It has been a trend on twitter about the Pork Barrel Corruption in the Philippines. It has been devastating that some people will do terrible things just for them to be able to live the life they wanted though they never deserve. I'm not going to be in neither of the sides but I have to say that Money is a Piece of paper that can control your entire life. The most kindest person can be the worst person if have given the chance to take money. Well. I saw that Millions of Filipino's went to gather to protest about the system that has been made by the administration of the Recent and Past governance. It was incredible how people gather and again act as one nation to be able to set their country free from those who's trying to steal money in which the community deserve to have. I saw that there has been a massive disaster in the Philippines recently and it was truly devastating. I know Australian Red Cross are helping Philippine Red Cross but wasn't much more better if PRC stand alone without any help of their neighbouring country. I even saw that Pork Barrel is created in order to help people in the vicinity of the Elected Government official, but I know election just gone through, Where are those official they voted?!? They are nowhere to be seen aren't they. I don't know or how to resolve graft and corruption but can we all just get along?

Also recently on twitter, Robin Thicke and Miley Cyrus, I did expect some of those act from Robin Thicke but not from Miley. It was incredibly dirty and I have seen dirty dancing (not the movie) and that's not a dance. It was impromptu sexual act with clothes on. People say she is just being Miley but I'd say. Do whatever you want to do in your freetime but don't create something that kids would be able to see. I know she is grown up Miley but Kids still admire her. That will pursuit Adolescent Pregnancy kids would think it's fine, Im not saying we should all blame it to her but she can be the reason. If you can't be the SOLUTION at least don't be the PROBLEM.

Lady Gaga's performance was less fabulous than any of her performance, hep! before you write some hateful words about me, just let me finish! I mean to say is Born This Way and Paparazzi is more dramatic on 2011 and 2012, but Lady Gaga is very unpredictable women that makes it more exciting to see her. I kinda have a feeling that she'll do something better than that though I would say it's a top notch performance. I also admire her for talking out the One Direction for being Booed for the Award they received. I don't like Best Song Ever, I don't hate it either. I won't turn the Radio off if they played it. I might sing along (wink, wink) It might be one of the song needs to be played whilst driving in the shore. I reckon the audience should've shouted their mouth because if they want someone else to take the prize, they should've voted hard enough. And they are Mad about Kanye West unprofessional stealing microphone scene with Taylor Swift? they do that too but not too shabby.


Today, I woke up early for my driving exam. I Failed anyway Im running 52kph on 50kph zone. Kinda stupid move but hey there's always a second chance.

Anyway, Im applying for Air Traffic Controller program that the government are trying to recruit people off. If given the chance I have to stay in Australia for less than a Year and as you all know Nate and I already planned on leaving by the end of Next Year. So I kinda told him they are already processing me on level 3 of application. I talked to him through and to change the topic because he is seriously mad I asked him when is he going back here, stupid move that I asked as he answered "I don't think there should be a fair reason for me to back. I will stay now". I asked him if it's the end? So I guess it is. Im pretty much devastated but Im happy my mum's here to cheer me up a little, but now telling the story all over again makes me want to call him and say "I want him back" because I do. But i guess certain things are meant to be sacrifice in order to succeed. I was too saddened but I have no other choice but to do it. Have I told you I don't believe in Marriage? well I don't but I picture myself living with him as a Married couple but I don't know now, I turned him down quite a few times so I guess Nate learned his lesson loving a person as hard as rock like me. I love Nate so much if I could just do something. He is my Noah ( The Notebook ) ,  Ross (FRIENDS) and he is my Nate! I love Nate so much... His sister called me and asked me if we broke up I said yes, She said Nate is crying and Im not. I know whatever happens it will be me and him but I guess it's over since Nate already cancelled his flight on my Birthday.

Anyway. I'm sorry I missed out a lot but now I'll start doing weekly blog.

xx

nigeltv

Day 38 | Sunday | August 18

Today has been incredible. It was so busy at work and all that but something extra ordinary happened, I was cleaning up. my employer have 3 visitor who just finished eating then 1 went into the veranda, 1 into the loo and 1 went to talk to the chef, I looked at the veranda after the girl from the loo shows up, when I saw them, it's 4 of them. I thought it's my boss and her 3 friend but apparently the other one is still talking to the chef, so I looked closer and I saw some Headless guy. When they went home I told them to be careful driving home, but when I stopped thinking about it, It shows up again in the veranda facing in the woods, I told my family. They said my Third Eye just opened and I started seeing the paranormal stuff. I don't believe in ghost but I think I have to now.


nigeltv

Day 38 | Friday | August 16

Hey guys, I forgot to write up yesterday, Im incredibly tired but nothing really happen except that the guy who suppose to work yesterday called in sick so I have to work with the 2 ladies who we reckon shouldn't stay, but today is lot more stuff.


I'm chuffed to tell you that I watched movie again this week. Were the Millers. Jennifer Aniston is absolutely sexy and it was a good story line but it's not so much of a remarkable story. I actually watched it because of Jennifer Aniston. Oh my GOD, I fantasise her not until I saw her baby bump who woke me up that she's going to be a mum. :) I also went shopping today. I bought a bag and clothes and stuff. Im so happy about it, I never shopped before. I told Nate and I thought he'll be mad but nah. He is happy because he said I am being myself again once in a whilst. I made myself a limit. I just did it because I need to and Im buying a new car, I found Peugeot car but they said I should buy new one instead. So I am then,

Toyota Yaris, Mitsubishi Mirage, Nissan Alto and there's one more but I forgot. :) I need a car I dont care what should be it but I just need it. :) I need hatchback, just a cheapy one. I don't need to be showy and stuff.

Anyway, gonna go find car again. Look at specs and stuff.

nigeltv

Day 36 | Wednesday | August 14

I missed work today, I went to the hospital today, Im all good but my brother needs surgery ASAP. Then, had a dinner in Jus Burger on Subiaco today. It was great. It was really good as always, never really failed my taste buds. It aas so satisfying, also I got my tax return and I now have money to buy a car. It will be amazing month for me. I can't wait. Tomorrow I need to go work again then off, so I have to go now.

nigeltv

Day 35 | Tuesday | August 13

I woke up early for today's game. 1-1 it's draw because my mate hurt hinself, gotta stop and bring him to the hospital. Dislocated ankle. It was awful and I feel bad for him, then he decided to watch Now You See Me before going in the Hospital. 

Now You See Me. It's about Magic and Robbery. It was very captivating as it had an interactive trick as well, it was just good. The story line was great too, They said to create a magic you need a distraction to be successful and to be honest this movie is not full of magic trick because the movie itself is magic. It was so creatively thought. There's heaps of distraction where the point you'd say you didn't expected that to happen.

This is a great and fun movie to watch.

Nigeltv

Xx

Day 34 | Monday | August 12

To tell you what, nothing interesting happened, my political views are like down and stuff, except from the endless road work so I have to walk 5 minutes extra to get to my next bus stop going to work. Hey Mr. Barnett, enough road work.


I'm really sorry but that's all I can say. I want to say something but Im flat out today. It's my off tomorrow and I will have football game.

Ohh, I have one, 2 Staff at work shows up, 1 walked out 1 didn't show up, My employer told me they're intimidated by me because I am new and they all went down, well I gotta say, Have the same working experience as mine, I'd probably argue with that, but my god it's really out of the question, and surprisingly my boss rehires them, then it makes me feel hopeless for the place, It won't work if only one person or 2 makes the effort for things to work out. I thought she has the guts to tell them not to come back, but nah. didn't happen. I mean yes they didn't rock up to work because they're intimidated but that can't be a unprofessional reason not showing up. It was really is a very bad decision but hey, Im just here to supervise but still, It would be a great thing, I don't know, someone from work said it's made up stories and shit, and I can even do that but I have nothing to do with their personal life, all I care is. Pay respect for the employer and that hasn't done and that was replaced by opposite. I really don't think that shit should happen. It was terrible. I have been a manager and I know, it kills to refuse or sack or not satisfy employee but that's part of being successful, you have to sacrifice in order to be in a good shape.

Well, I can't say anything, I just can't believe she changed her plans with simple reason but that just proves that she is a good person but not a staff handler.

nigeltv.


Im not saying im against her, it's just it would be much better to have some strategy and stuff.

Day 33 | Sunday | August 11

Hey, it's my brother's birthday today. Happy Birthday Bruh! I don't feel jealous at all that he is celebrating hos birthday with friends and stuff and I went home from work seeing no one. I feel just fine but mum invited her froends over on my birthday but actually, it was such a disappointment that I don't like celebrating my birthdays too. So Im not going to celebrate my birthday, maybe I will be going out but since my boyfriends will go home in a week, I then will celebrate with him then, but I will be happy with the simple dinner. My brother received heaps of gifts and I kinda feel ai want one but nah, I don't need another person telling me Im aging.

To be honest, I want to celebrate my birthday, I wont mind at all, but my mum and dad won't feel comfortable with them around, maybe I will celebrate once I leave the house. So I can invite as many as I want.

I know my boyfriend is an avid reader and Im telling you Nate, I will never let you go, Im not saying this because Im kinda tipsy but this is how I feel, I want to do tequilla tonight and Im alone and you're in London, you went out to buy some tequila so we can drink together over Skype, you are such an amazing man. I love you so much.

Goodnight guise. 

nigeltv

xx

Day 32 | Saturday | August 10

Weather is so good to me today, it was raining when I woke up, again, it felt like I want to sit down, watch the rain pour down my window and sit a hot cocoa, but I have to work. When Im about to leave, rain stopped and I arrived at work dry but cold. I thought I will be working in and out today but ended up working outside alone during the arvo and during the night with a help of Ruby. It was great! 

Actually, I found Ruby a great person to work with. I just felt offended when my owner said to me I have to watch their performance outside, I don't know if she know or not, but it was actually not allowed if you're doing the waiting. It can cause trouble. I made a practical test before and I failed doing the service because I was running around. I can run from the counter and kitchen but as soon as I stepped on the servicing area. That is not allowed anymore. It's a massive no-no. Walking fast either, well there's a certain way to make things faster. I don't actually think I can change the system, because I told the owner how things to be done with the service to up scale the sales but She didn't listen, well, I also learnt from my experience that Im in no position to said anything but only to suggest. I mean, if that's how they want to things roll. I guess, I just have to follow. 

Im very fond to change things go there but I don't think I can, these are the moment where I wish I can bring my staff with me, I can positively say that the cafe that's once oblivion to everyone will be back on it's game. I don't know really, but things are going well anyway, I mean they kept telling me summer is coming sp like customer is coming but what I want is not just customer during summer but customer during winter too, because I have changed a restaurant on my own ways of servicing that doesn't have customer durinf winters too but now is always fully book. Not 5 star but felt like. I have a customer today who was shocked when the owner gave her the menu from the door. She said she heard that you are being guided from the door to your table but now she didn't. I bet it was me but hey, you will be lucky if it was me. Anyway, It don't really phase me. Not my business anyway, but I care for the customer. That's what is.

I work with this girl Ruby, I showed her the photo of Nate, she said he looks like Alex Pettyfer and lIke, she stopped calling me on my name but called me as Alex Pettyfer'a boyfriend or Mrs. Alex Pettyfer. Gracious god. He does actually. Haha. That slag'

Im off now, wprk tomorrow, but needed more enegery as it was my brother's birthday tomorrow. I don't know what to give him though. 

Nigeltv

xx

Day 31 | Friday | August 9

It was fun that I went into 1 month of blogging. It was very nice since i quit most of the thing I mostly commit into. HAHA..


Today wasn't good though but half great as well. I didn't washed the dishes last night as I was busy doing fixing/updating my phone. I woke up 5 am since I have my brother to bring into clinic. My mum been nagging all morning and I felt absolutely shit until I discovered she is pointing out a fillet knife few inches away from me. It was so scary and I want to call the copper but I can't ruined my brother's birthday and I don't want to be the bitch. It was so life changing, I don't think I'll ever forgive her with that, that'll be forever in my mind. If I probably said something, I'd probably not celebrating 1 Month of blogging. It was really scary, but I should probably forgive her but not forget. It was silly do be that mad for just dishes and being messy, I think they shouldn't raised me at all, I'm 20 years old and Im suppose to be messy and if Im not, it's either I have cleanliness problem or Im a fucking NERD.


I worked with a cute guy tonight, Sam one of the waitstaff whose my boss has always been whinging about her laziness walked out and guessed that she'll not allowed to go back. So they needed help from an old employee who has been working there even with the old owner, now he wants work again. He is fucking HOT! I know I have boyfriend but god forgive me, I almost jumped to him and kissed him, nah Im just kidding. He is cute but I have boyfriend and I love my boyfriend that I can't do that to him. He is just a good worker though.

I know friday is my off but I have to cover up with a mates shift. It was good though.


Anyway, gotta go, Im waiting for my tax return so I can buy a car. so now Im looking like Im just clothes shopping.

nigeltv

Day 30 | Thursday | Aug 8

Today has been very terrible for me, I'm recently updating my phone and doing shit without knowing I can do much easier step, I won't elaborate as I feel so stupid.

I'm still updating my phone and might take couple of hours.

Anyways, I know I have been vocal about gay rights, Did you know Troye Sivan? Well if you don't, you have to know him, He is a very brave young man. He knew that Coming out to the public can put his career in Jeopardy but he don't really care, He just wanted to be himself and as he was being one to his family, he felt like he needed his fans to be aware of, I kinda know from the start, when I saw him in Hillary's here in Perth. I figured it all out straight away, he seems like a nice fella' I'm not surprised about his coming out but I admire him for sharing it to the world and being so brave telling his parents in person about his sexuality, I'm not saying I don't have support from my friends and family because I do. I just confessed with writing it in a letter.

He set a very good example to all the teenage guys who is curious about their sexuality. Those people who is afraid to come out because of few circumstances can have comfort through Troye Sivan's Video.

Video Below

In my recent post you can see that most of my readers are from Russia and to those person who have been constantly reading my blog. This bloke will help you more than I do. He will absolutely and surely inspire you. According to him, his sexuality is not something he's ashamed of or something that someone has to be ashamed of.

I'm from Perth, Australia, same place where Troye is currently living, we both knew how Western Australian are very active and vocal about being Honest about Sexuality. I've tried to make YouTube videos before that's why my name is nigeltv on this blog, but I failed as I dont have long patience editing videos. Everyone is different when it comes to reaching out people and writing is my way of helping and reaching for people and telling everyone I feel. It's very overwhelming and I hope that Troye Sivan and I can keep encouraging people to stay strong in life.


Good night guys.

#FreedomforRussianGLBT

nigeltv

Gay Lesbian Bisexual and Transgender Community Rights.

I don't usually make some write ups about a single issue but on www.outinperth.com.au I found a letter written by great Stephen Fry for the UK Prime Minister David Cameron and the Olympic Committee requesting to cancel or reschedule the Winter Olympics that's suppose to be held in Sochi, Russia in 2014. In my recent blog, I said that it's so stupid to consider public humiliation and torturing of gay people in Russia, but Stephen Fry opened my eye that the history are happening again, the same as what Hitler did with the Jews, but now Putin with the gay people. It shouldn't happen because in the first place. We didn't chose to be gay guys or girls, WE ARE BORN THIS WAY. We have freedom, it's 20th centre for fuck sake, haven't we had enough from the past that makes us too much of a open-mindedness? I thought this generation will suppose to be Fight for Equality but it seems like we are living like it's 1950's where Black People are always under white people. God damn it! Hitler against Jews, Black against White, and now GLBT against the Government and Religion. It was damn fucking awful.

God created everything in this world to give us fulfilment and gives us satisfaction. Okay, let's say we don't have god who created everything in this world, but isn't everything in this universe are made to be our satisfaction? The world have been evolving for the better living, we all say that we should agree for the future better living. Isn't it better future seeing everyone having no problem loving each other in all the way they can? Of course yes! I have to say I don't believe in Marriage but if become legal. Isn't a good start. It was really annoying seeing politician fighting for our equality, It was disturbing as we are like beggar begging them as their approval is our food and shelter. It was horrible to see politician's telling us what to do.


To my Mr Tony Abbott and Prime Minister Kevin Rudd, have you experienced telling your parents you want to marry a person but your parents thought she wasn't the right for you? I want to ask you how does it feel to ask someone's permission to be with the one you love? It hurts doesn't? mostly when they disagree, what did you do anyway You married with them? or you listen to your parents? if you married with them. If you listened to your parents, did regret ever occur to you? and if you married them anyway, good on you! you fought for what you think is right. That's the marriage equality we are looking for. If it never happened to you both, since I don't know you're life story and I don't ever want to know because that's personal, I hope someone from your both Family will let you experience it as it will teach you a lesson how not to intrude into someone else's life. Remember, you are the 2 heads of this country. Every decision you make, will affects millions of millions of people, but I guess, you will use Gay Marriage as a platform this coming election and once you got what you want from us. Then we have to start waiting again and start fighting for our equal rights, then for the next coming election we will hear your promises again. You think of us a chess game. You'll move us wherever you want us to be.


Today as well, I saw in one of my feed from Facebook that one Christian Democrats blame gays for Pay inequality. Well that is just stupid! whoever thought of that is just ridiculously mentally ill. Who will ever thought of that? Because we are gays we get better pay? I don't think so, maybe because we (gays) are more focused in life than any other straight people, We have high goal in life so we try to aim higher. You said you'll change it this coming election? how? you'll sack all of us from our job and let us get small amount of money from the centrelink so Straight people will get good pay and we get support? I don't think it'll gonna happen as we are good in what we do. Why instead of accusing us of such ridiculous accusation, why not encourage unemployed straight people who'd rather ask for government support to work their ass off so you can beat us on the next census survey? oh hey, you want us to pay Gay Tax then? we'll go ahead so we can add up Straight list on our list of things that we need to fight for.


I get really pissed off when such group of educated people do something stupid to ruin someone else's life. They always says gay relationship isn't stated in the bible, I know that but it's just people who write the bible as they have new and old testament aye? also it says in the bible that Adam and Eve created a sin by not following the task of God not to eat the apple right? They did anyway so they had knowledge, we do know what they did is wrong and made us all sinful but we still admire them, dont we? It was also stated that there is a talking snake, In this century have we ever seen a talking snake trying to provoke us to do something? I don't think so but we believe in it. You might say it represents something, okay then, let's represent one of the 10 Commandments which stated love one another, which is my interpretation of Love everyone unconditionally and unlimited. One of the priest told me before that 10 commandments is life Science. It has branches. So you can't deny to me that there is a small possibility that Gay people are meant to love each other as straight people do.


I don't admire people who can't stand seeing people happy and who can't stand imagining the world full of happy people. Why don't we just have contentment in life?


nigeltv
xx

Day 29 | Wednesday | Aug 7

I had a good day at work, they taught me how to cook the menu's. great!

We trained our brother to the restaurant. He went good too.

I went out to go to the bus sttation early and I totally regret it. It rained heavy and I am soaking wet. It's so awful that I am freezing when I get to the fucking work.

I have a problem with Bus Transportation here in Perth. I know it might be hard for them to being on time but they should put a tracker on their buses like the cab. It's very awful that most of the time they are late though I get to the stop 15 minutes early but sometimes they arrive earliest that 15 minutes. Then I have to wait for 1 hour. I know they are doing their job but it's not so much good job, they put in their timetables they have timed stop, where is that now? Are your buses drivers are in a rush? I don't mind commuting but it's terrible mostly in this type of weather. I hate it so much. Im willing to wait but just let us know if we are waiting for minutes or we are talking about hours or two because the bus has already left. It's stupid. I hope official can try to ride a bus but the bus has already left. Then, they'll understand our position. 

nigeltv

xx

Day 28 | Tuesday | Aug 6

I woke up today because mum constantly walkingg in to my room whilst sleeping talking to me. Im much better drunk that just woken up. LOL. I had a driving lesson and I can say Im fucking ready to have my license. 

I went to Carousel having thought I can watch movie but I just got lazy so I just bought DVD. The Paperboy, 5 Years Engagement and the Possesion. I also bought teetch whitening gel. I will bleach my teeth like Caleb of Big Brother. 

I also got pissed off at my antenna so I kinda broke it a bit.

I know I felt bad for not watching movie so I was in a queue until I found the note I wrote for my brother that suppose to be hanging in our door for the hidden key but it turns out. It's in my bag. Im so stupid, then I went home Im deciding talking to Nate from UK if I want cheese pizza or fish and chips, I chose Fish and Chips but it's close until 5. Since it's just 2 in the arvo. I just decided to go home and cook something that I can eat for lunch, I watch the possesion and fell asleep so my meal today happened at 9. I also wanted to buy a book but my boyfriend told me to go to his house and open the chest on his coffee table. There's another John Green book for me. 

Im so madly inlove with Nate. He is always been the right guy for me. Im like the guy in Ruby Spark movie. I haven't sern the movie but I don't know what the story is.

I also wanna buy vodka but smirnoff is my fav but it's russian and I condone drinking russian vodka to have gay freedom.

nigeltv

xx

Day 27 | Monday | August 5

Can I just say, I woke up feeling so much happy that 1 more day then it will be my off again.

I went to work and didn't saw the staff that was suppose to be working that day, my boss called that person heaps of time with no reply, I'm happy to see my boss being upset, it makes her stronger. She sacked that person. It was terrible but it's so unprofessional not to say anything and just don't show up. It's much better not to show up forever. Just assume that you'll never exist. I'm disappointed though, but hey 1 day working alone is fine. Off tomorrow. HAHA. I worked alone tonight and I impressed a couple with my Latte Art and their daughter is Barista as well. It was incredible. Anyway the girl who walked out came in to work. Ain't gonna say something but how ...


I was watching the feed when I watched the news about the treatment for Russian and Foreign Gay in Russia. It was terrible, from now on I will stop drinking Russian Vodka. I wonder I have lots of readers from Russia. I heard gay's are being framed up and tortured and humiliated. The President of Russia has a very close-mind. That person should've implement freedom. Even rally are condemned. It shouldn't be that way! We all have views in life, I get it but if you lead one of the biggest country in the world. You should be open-minded as people vote for you. I don't know why being gay is such a big deal to Russian Straight people. Gay people don't bite, Gay people don't eat straight people. Why don't you just accept the fact that we are not Gay because we (Guys) like Cock and them (Girls) like pussy but it's the personal and emotional attachment we feel for each other. Here in Australia, I worked in the mine site and have been given the chance to work with the toughest bloke, I asked him, are you okay me being gay? He said "It's your life, I have no rights, no one actually has right and in a position to tell you gay and lesbian people who you should love and who you shouldn't. I actually admire your community as they are more active, vocal and honest than straight community." I said "Hey Man, Thanks for that. I admire your open-mindedness" He said to me, "Look Lionel, I'm catholic and raised scared of God but no body is perfect. Only God is Perfect, he has created us to be just like the exact same replica of him but Adam and Eve ruined it all, which makes us sinful right even before we got born. Even Priest makes sin. So if you love someone and someone told you, you shouldn't be with that person because your relationship is wrong, tell him that As Long as you are with someone you love there's no right or wrong and you don't need anybody in this world because it will always be You and Him against the world." I wouldn't forget that conversation. What I'm trying to say is, No one is in a position to tell you who you can and can't love. I know in the Catholic church it doesn't say in the Bible  anything about Gay people but, there is a lot of things in the bible who wasn't also mentioned but we people are supporting and lots of stuff in the bible that was mentioned but no one ever proved that was proven, Talking Snake! I'm catholic and I believe in God, I know some phrase in the bible was written to represent a life situation but can we be open minded and think that their might be a slight possibility that there's something in the bible that says some situation that represents being gay or loving someone with no limits and no objections? I hope there is. I just hope Russia and any other country can have heaps of chance to do whatever they want and love who ever they like. Life is a one time shot and it was meant to be fun and incredible, but objecting about love between same sex isn't fun for us and I guess for those people too that was against it.

Anyway, let's be happy!

GLBT Freedom for all.

Let's Pray for Russia.

nigeltv
xx

PS: Comment about your view about the Russian law and treatment for GLBT Community and other stuff.

Day 26 | Sunday | August 4

I slept 4am. I don't know why? maybe waiting for Nate to call up, He called me early in the morning though like 5 pm and I heard Nate's brother. I treat that kid like my own brother.

I called me boss last night that I will be late for half an hour. :) but I didn't. LOL I came to work and all is good, had fun until this arvo until the Night Shift wait staff ruined my day. I told her that we need to work out on bad service because all she do is sit down and text, get order and sit down again. It's not a really, she thinks she'll have a good time tonight but she have to work alone, her friend left her hanging. She walked out and said she can get better pay in other job, but I think on her work ethics, sitting down and text. She'll never find a job that will allow her to do it. I don't think so! I can assure you if she's not going to change her attitude, She will just get money from Centrelink. She has to learn the word PROFESSIONALISM. She is so rude too. I don't think she also can get better pay job. 17 years old with $17 per hour. Wasn't that good? She wasted her opportunity to have high level service skills. She is so dumb stupid.


Now, I'm home and waiting for Nate to call me. He texted me to call him and I can't. well I can but I don't want to. see I can manipulate people but I can't be manipulated at all.

It's Monday tomorrow, I'm gonna get my pay and tuesday is my off.

I felt bad that she quits but relieve that i don't have to train someone who has no capability of learning like people who has no brain.

nigeltv
xx

sorry for being such a bitch tonight. She kinda ruined the day

Day 25 | Saturday | August 3

I was late at work, it doesn't matter. I thought they knew it will be busy so I have to get early at work and help someone out but it was such a surprise that I will be working as a WaitStaff on my own. It was busy but hey it was incredibly amazing. I love working on my own and I love to work on my own because I do all my stuff as I have been train and experience to do so. It was incredible. I hope it happens most of the time. I don't mind. I would actually appreciate it.

Today my employer showed me some reviews from UrbanSpoon about the place I work for. It's not about the food but about the Service. My employer is right, things around it has to change and as she saw my performance outside as a waitstaff, She wanted me to Manage and Supervise the waitstaff outside. According to one of the review, the waitstaff don't smile and such and felt unwelcome. I don't like that review because I always feel tired of smiling but because of the job I have to smile. Guest things that everything is on a mess, well it is but under my management. It's impossible. I will manage this Restaurant properly. As my mate use to say. I'm a perfectionist and it's impossible that things won't go in my way. I'm very strict person but Im not an arsehole and stuff. I will do my best to make things right. I will help them, they are a good employer. They keep the staff that they even knew should be gone in a long while, though they knew that it might be their lost. They don't deserve that. I have manage people before and this one is so Easy. My mate is right this staff hasn't had a real job because no one told them off to do stuff and I will show them what's the real job is. I sound like a dick but hey, It's my responsibility to my employer as a worker and as a mate. You wouldn't want your mate's boat to sink. The staff will know that working with me is no seating down. I would keep them working as long as they are getting paid to work. I have what? 10 minutes break and they have almost 2 fucking hours? I would want that but I can't, there's a lot of job to do. It doesn't matter if there's a guest or not. There is something to do, maybe they thought being waitstaff is just serving food, maybe it is but they can't even do it properly, Hey I'm not generalising I'm mentioning only a few. I won't sack someone because it's not my job but I will surely get someone improve and I am seeing someone a potential. Once I have trained them, they will realise that they are doing a wrong stuff and those things they've done in the past isn't a job at all but leisure. The place is really good, there's a potential but with those review that has to be changed. It won't work if even no one gonna step up their game. Also, I will start selling take-away coffee soon, I just need to see where can I get takeaway coffee cups. I also make Latte art and I'm trying to improve my skills in my art. Lots of people said they'll encourage their friends to come and have some latte art experience from me. It was good.

From this day, I promise you that I will change the way of Food Service in Han's Cafe Kalamunda. I worked in a 5 Star Restaurant and I will satisfy you with 5 Star service. I know it's not 5 Star but it's my happiness to make you happy. Come and visit us! We are Open 11am to 10pm everyday including Sundays and I will make you feel that you don't have to dine in to a 5 Star Asian Restaurant. In Han's Cafe Kalamunda you will be satisfied with good tasting Authentic Asian as well. I'm not doing this because I work there. If I can just bring back the past, I will do some write ups about the my old job and I don't like it. Half of my reader came from Australia and I am hoping that you will pay us a visit anytime soon. There's a lot of name to mention if you want to have 5 star experience but I will still stand in a safe spot, so just look for Nigeltv if you want that satisfying experience.

Anyway, I forgot to tell you that I broke my partner's mates nose and also my partners because they kept saying they scored since someone forgot to score except from me. I got pissed of so I punched them in the face. I already told them to stop or I'll give them a punch. Well, I gave them, I felt sorry but we all ended up laughing. Hey, I'm not going to punch someone's face if you think I will if you visit me in Han's. Based on my experience every person is different according to their life situation, so I don't whinge if people are rude. I know there's a purpose so I just kept everything to myself.

Remember, Han's Cafe Kalamunda Open 7 Days from 11am to 10pm. BYO. 5 Star Experience. Okay, I'm endorsing it, why? because my name is at stake so I have to really change things up. Okay? hey I forgot we also do take away orders.

See you then ?

xx
nigeltv

Day 24 | Friday | Aug 2

Today, it's my off. I played Football (soccer) with my mates. We played with Dexter for the first time, he is a good kicker, Nate is dumb goal keeper. I knew I should rephrase my sentence from Im playing football to Im winning football. I so kicked their stupid poor arses. It's 5-1 if you must. It was a good time. Then Nate invited me for a movie, we watched The Conjuring.

It was a great scary movie. It didn't shocked me but it's so simple and old looking set up as it was old true story according to The Warren's file who investigated at Amityville and Haunting in Connecticut. I loved it. It's really worth the watch but there's 3 girls who kept whispering so 3 people including me yelled at them to shut up because I think they entered illegally without paying since they even brought up 2 more friends but good thing they left or else I will rage again. Fucking awful person.

I just computed my Tax Return fpr this year. I spent 3 hours and I think it's worth it. It was incredible amazing to do it on my own.

nigeltv

xx

Day 23 | Thursday | August 1

Oh my god, day goes by very quickly. 11 days from now it will be my brother's birthday and then it will be my birthday. This craziness about getting old started when my boyfriend made me realise how stupid to grow up. It made me so upset on my birthday. Last year my friend called me grandpa! Jeez. 

I just got home and stuff Im off again tomorrow. I might go watch movie tomorrow arvo. I dunno maybe? Pacific Rim or anything.

I was cleaning up the kitchen when I realized my shoes are wet. 

Anyway, my dad is upset of me. I left the fridge open and plugged on. Im so stupid aye.

I called my driving instructor. I will take lessons again. I am so excited.

Im going out tomorrow but not night.

Tonight we left work like 10 to 10. There's lot of customer. I will be working weekend but Im estatic so it's good. Mum told me about FIFO 1:1 for 140. I reckon it's a lie. That's impossible!

Anyway, I will be enjoying my off now.

nigeltv

xx

Day 22 | Wednesday | July 31

I just got home, I was invited by my boss to have some late night dinner in Northbridge, I missed partyin' in Northbridge. I will go there sooner. I missed it so much. We had Japanese Tofu, Beef Brisket and Intestine also I forgot Soft Shell Crab, it was good. Never had any chinese for long.

Today, I have trained Bianca a girl in my work place. I like her with her professionalism, she listen to me and stuff and like she's willing to learn from me.

Now Im watching Big Brother and I can't stop watching Drew. He is so damn cute. For fuck sake. I want him so much. Anyway, Im caught up with Taylor Henderson of X Factor. Lol Im bitching! I need my boyfriend now, LOL .

nigeltv

Day 21 | Tuesday | July 30

Hey my lovely reader, I don't have anything to say or anything interested that I did that to watch TV because it's raining and I can't do much. I watched Big Brother and X Factor again and The Sex Show on SBS 2 then I thought of my removing all my zits eith no apparent reason. I dunno but I think I will buy Benoyl Peroxide tomorrow to give it a go maybe, then I will buy something to bleach my teeth like Caleb of Big Brother that's so damn white teeth. 

Let's talk about Big Brother. The newly faked married and newly entered Housemate named Drew is damn HOT and Sexy. Oh my I will be keeping an eye on Jade. She ain't putting a single finger on my baby. I will destroy her. Ahahaha. I love DREW. There is a lot of hottie in Melbourne. There is heaps to in Perth but i don't know why Im even saying it. I love Shazza, she is a real mother and she is so pretty. I love her, I can sense that she'll be always in between the fight and will never be the cause of any trouble. Ben is so funny, he is not just funny but utterly hilarious, with his alter ego Brian, it blown me away. He is good acting straight, I thought he is weird and stuff but maybe he is but that's unique. Tahan is over acting with everything, she is pretty hot but with her initial attitude, I hated her, Im good seeing people's aura and with her, I don't like it. When she said she hated it, she meant it not like the pther who don't meant it. She said she'll risk the chance of winning quarter of a million just to be soaked in the jacuzzi. She broke the law that Big Brother clearly clarified as will make their stay in the house shorter. Big Brother you should be manipulating them but she did manipulate you. Shame on Tahan, she is Government employee, is that how government employee should be? Will disobey the rules and regulation for their own sake and leisure? What a shame. I never dream to be in Big Brother but warching it is kinda fun but not with intruding their personal lives. I just watch to see their reaction from the challenges. Tim is sometimes irritating when yelling, I thought at first he is just trying to tell everyone that he is bossy and should be listened too, but he is funny and shit and it's normal for him to shout. When he taught Ben in the Gym. Oh my god, I love how supportive he is and not make fun of Ben. Caleb has incredibly white teeth but I think he should go as well as Tahan for trying to cross the border, not just clothings shit. Isn't like the asylum seekers that if they tried to enter Australia they will be sent to Papua New Guinea if they dont have passport and settle their for good. Big Brother set that border not because he wants to but because of the economy. Big Brother does things with purpose and secret agenda. I have watched Big Brother UK/ Slovenia/ Philippines/ Germany /Australia. There is always a secret message. Anyways, I love the chinese girl too, she is so bubbly and cheeky. She looks geniuinely smart too. 

I'm not a fan okay? Im just a regular viewer. I don't mind missing it tomorrow.( I have recorder) lol. 

Gltta go.

Work tomorrow til thursday then off again.

Nigeltv

xx

My dream that made me cry

I just woken up again, and I had a dream that made me cry, I maybe into sci fi movies and the situation is they froze all the humanity and defrost them after a million years but one person did a terrible things maintaining the frozen human and defrost them hundred years earlier than schedule, all of them got defrosted and tried to escape. Like in Resident Evil one big company like Umbrella chases us out, we all got caught and we will be send to sleep so we can get frozen again, I am lying into the round chamber like Lady Gaga's egg on MTV music awards. I saw my brother Stephen  on the other ,rugged and his half face full of bruises and wound, and my second brother Alec same situation but about to get send into sleep. Hoping to escape but no chance we mutually just decided to hold each other's hand, everyone's crying then Alec got sent into sleep, Stephen begging for water and I can't give him a water though I can see a jar of water but we was about to get processed, I'm crying because I can't give my brother the smallest thing he need. I'm the one left and I can see doctors and nurses, they walked to me and said something.

Then I woke up, found myself crying. I wish that will never happen. I can't live without my family. My brothers is one of my happiness.

nigeltv

Day 21 | Monday | July 30

It's monday, one more day to work then off, well I'm off now, it was tiring, made myself so busy. I was in the kitchen morning but in the arvo I went to work alone as a waitstaff. My employer has been whinging about the sturdy staff. So I suggest to take over on management, I know they'll hate me but that's how it really goes anyway. I see some of the wait staff just sitting down whilst customer are around, I don't like that so I removed the chairs. I know it's kinda bit harsh but they are taking advantage of it. I will change lots of stuff in there, I just convinced the owner to let one person work at night during those not busy night. I've done it before they can do it too then, I know they'll hate me but whatever you do they'll hate you anyway.

I recorded Australian Big Brother and X Factor Australia. Oh my god, X Factor is suprising, Big Brother is funny! It will be nicer next week with X Factor competing with Australia's Got Talent which is last year in the same broadcasting company. 

Anyway, Im off now, gotta enjoy it. 

Bye

Nigeltv

xx

Day 20 | Sunday | July 28

I have work sunday and I don't mind. I'd rather earn money than to get stuck at home and do nothing. Well, it's the same though. People wants to stay home sundays so pretty much it wasn't busy at all. I kept playing with my cafe latte art at work. I amaze people and give them something to instagram. It was damn nice. I don't know if I still wanna work sunday again but maybe what ever.

I'm watching a documentary about Pornography through teenage life. It was crazy amazing. One of my favourite Marcus Mojo is a straight guy but through the request of his girlfriend he just chose to go to be on Gay Porn. 

Out of the topic really but recently on my facebook, I posted that I miss my boyfriend. Yes, I have a boyfriend. Nate and I are back together again. We reckon we are meant for each other. :) though last night I dreamt about being boyfriend of Alex Pettyfer who looks like Nate. Haha.

Anyway I gotta go. Work tomorrow then off on tuesday.

nigeltv

xx

Day 19 | Saturday | July 27

Today was good day, Went to work and did my job. I have pretty much nothing to say. 

Now, I am watching Pursuit of Happyness. It made me realise how some other people desperately need money and shelter and how they'll do everything for the sake of the one they love. I hate how I just spend my money because I want to but I dont need it, but I guess I deserve it. I always imagine myself being a millionaire, or famous celebrity but you know what no lifting my chairs. I never dream of buying a mansion with heaps of stuff in with no use at all. Im minimalist and so simple person. I dream that if I have a billion or I earn million dollars in a year. I will build a a house for less fortunate and I will do my best to help, I mean I want to do in a very simplest way that I can. At the moment, I am supporting a child here in Australia. I know it won't stop poverty and it will never will but I dream of a place where I will be recognise not because Im good at entertaining but to be recognize as a good person. People said when you did a good deed don't ask for something back, but I'm just a person. Appreciation and simple Thank You will make me absolutely happy. I imagine myself owning a big company without stepping on someone and giving my employee the happiness they deserve and everything. All my life I always wanted to help. I think those person who helps a lot are those person who struggled and I'm counted.

Anyway. Work tomorrow sunday!

Nigeltv

Xx

Day 18 | Friday | July 26

I woke up 11am today, first time in weeks. It's my day off today. Hah. As I said last night, I will be watching lots of movie today, now Im watching Sweet Home Alabama and Humour Has It simultaneously, but this arvo it's Mr and Mrs Smith and Eragon. I just wished they continued Eragon 2 or did they? hahaha...

Yesterday, I found my bed bunk is bend and broken but it officially gave up today. I'm not sleeping in the bed bunk less room. I disassembled it today. It's too old but I hope I won't gonna decide to buy a new one. I think that's a problem to me. I always know how to give importance of money when I'm jobless but if I have a job I'm always one day millionaire. I hope something can change my mind.

Anyway, I wished this morning I went to a friends house but the weather is terrible, Hail, Windy and Heavy Rain there's actually a prediction pf a flood in Perth. I guess it didn't happen so Im glad.

Hey yow. Enjoy your weekend and I will enjoy the last of my day off watching movie and stuff. 

Have a good weekend aye?!?

nigeltv

xx

Day 17 | Thursday | July 25

I was walking goingg to work today in the town, when I felt like I'm like in English Shire. It's very victorian times. Anyway I had my favourite today Crispy Skin Salmon with Garden Salad. It's very fulfilling, and for dinner I had samosas and Chili Chicken. Loving it! I'm kinda disappointed with something personal but over all it's all good.

I was eating with Bianca when I remember that someone created Facebook Board Game, the creator reckon he is online most of the time and less time with board game so decided to create the said board game. I think it's genius.

I'm so happy tonight, Im off tomorrow, Im planning to do such stuff but whatever happen, happens. Well, yes! Im having sex tomorrow after weeks not having any. I don't know really what to do but there is something really that wants me to do it.

I really love making coffee anyway, I have loyal customers again which I love. I can make coffee forever. I'm planning to buy Barista Kit and also to take Barista Course. In my job Im also planning to take Managerial Course too. It's upsetting that I have bigger dream and I can achieve it but don't want to face that it will be a new start and like more responsibility.

Anyway, I will be watching movies tomorrow, what movie you reckon will be good?

Xx

Nigeltv

Day 16 | Wednesday | July 24

It was my first time to rock up to work late. 6 minutes roughly, I mean that really first time ever amongst all my job this is the first time. I kind of thought it's a problem because I never wanted to wait for long so I don't want people to wait for me as well, but today it still hasn't change maybe I'm not going to be late again for a longer time. LOL. I was cleaning up half a day last tuesday but today I kinda felt I have to clean up a 'bit then do something more creative, I hate health inspector but I get where they are coming. Tomorrow I already wrote things up in my head to do list. It will be done before my day off on friday. :) 

I cooked Egg Noodles Laksa for my dinner, it's super. My mate did some sweet cakes I loved it.

Anyway, I heard The Fault In Our Stars by John Green will have a movie adaptation. I've read the books exactly 12 times hoping that the next time I read it, it will change the whole story, hoping that this time on the movie it won't change a thing. Also hoping that they'll see Troye Sivan's The Fault In Our Star song that he did in order to pay respect with the story and all. Hope they'll use his music.

I'm watching Breakfast Club right now for like 7 times too. I always say I'm picky or stuff but if I like or loved something, I make the most out of it. In all the aspect in life I always choose wisely.

Anyway, you all have a good day ahead of you okay?

nigeltv

xx

Day 15 | Tuesday | July 23

I woke up today with the bews of the Royal Baby boy. I wasn't mad or livid about it, but I'm not much a fan of it. Like people are nuts about the sexuality of the baby and the name. I mean I understand that they need to servie the name of the baby to the people but they don't need to focus everything about the baby instead of letting people aware of the government and community and stuff, but anyway everyone is different.

I went to work today, I cleaned up most of the time, because I think Health Inspector is coming. I cleaned up most of the place in and out. It was quite surprising though, so now I suggested that there should be cleanig roster. It doesn't matter if I have to do it on my own. I don't really mind, all I want is to maintain the cleanliness because if you maintain it it will be more easier to clean it the next time and no more hard cleaning. The owner told the wait staff that they have to start listening to me because I will manage the restaurant. I talked to them that they have nothing to worry about me, I'm not strict and I don't ask people to do stuff if I can do it own my own time. Im very charming person so I don't want someone to hate me because I'm on a position. I don't even like that position but they trust me. I just hope things will go well for all of us.

I kinda think, I will like my job!

Anyway. I have met the nicest lady ever, I was looking for Boy Meets Boy book for 6 months now and I hoped that I will find one on Sell, Exchange Bookstore but they don't have one but the lady gave me where to buy online and she gave me advice how to find the cheapest. I really appreciate it.

I'm munching Turkish Delight right now. I haven't had any for ages now. I looked for the one I like in the city but I only found it on Kalamunda English shop.

Anyway, see you!!!

Nigeltv xx

Day 14 | Monday | July 22

Last night I felt really warm and uncomfortable that I can't sleep, so I took off all my clothes but like 6 am this morning, I felt absolutely freezing so I have to dress up under my warm blanket which I have never done before, i know how to undress but to dress up, never done it not until this morning. 

Today, I officially started my new job. I'm chef again. I never thought I'll enjoy cheffing again. My employer is terrific, they actually drop me off where I live. I didn't expected that offer really. Today was amazing. I learn the stuff that has to be learnt. Plus, I served the guest too and took order. My employer wish I will stay with them for a longer period of time, so they can let me manage the whole store whilst they are in the Philippines. It's big responsibility but I kinda have experience with it so I know I can handle it.

Channel 7 brought Celebrity Juice to Australia before but removed it on air after couple of weeks. Now it's back every night I think except Fridays. It was amazing. It's my favourite shoe and Russell Howard Good News and that was on SBSTWO. I saw Bogan Pride with Rebel Wilson tonight too. The bush was revolting! lol 

See you tomorrow xx

Nigeltv

Day 13 | Sunday | July 21

I had a very pleasant sleep, I probably never had a sleep like that since I left mine site work. Sleeping for longer than 12 hours is my favourite part in the mine site. LOL . That's it probably, but anyway not until I got woken up for church. It's freezing cold this morning aye. I had a long bathing time too.

For first time in years, I prayed not to wish or ask for something. All I did today was to Thank God for everything happen and for everthing I have but not everyday I want to have. 

My mum nagged me if I have work today since I haven't got a phone call not until 8. Mum's so pissed because after lunch I have been acting like a procastinator. I watched heaps of movie today.

The Day After Tomorrow

Hansel & Gretel Witch Hunters

Neverland (not yet finish)

Machete

Narnia 1

Simpsons

Now watching Modern Family.

I am so excited about work tomorrow, but when I went to church this morning there is one thing I asked god for an answer. Question of what this is and why? I want to confess to you all but Im afraid it will open put to someone.

Lots of question but really can't be bother really. No need for bullocks at the moment. Also my dad might go and work in the mine site sooner. I hope not because I want to relocate but whatever comes doesn't matter anymore. I wish us all the best.

Wish you all the best too!

Nigeltv xx

Day 12 | Saturday | July 20

Today has been a very pleasant day. I woke up not needing to worry about single thing. Dad cooked roasted pork for lunch then my bru bought KFC's for dinner. It's amazing! 

Also, Manchester United won versus A-League All-Star. It's 5-1 quite disappointing though. Seems like Australia didn't really care for todays friendly game. Well, if I were those guys either. I would probably gonna lose my care since the game was held in Sydney, Australia and full of Manchester United fans. Man Utd game didn't also show off tonight, they've just been running around telling the All-Star that no one can beat them with their practice mode. I wish it would've been so much intense.

I played money with tonight's game. I bet with friends and after the half time they withdrawn the damn game. I would've thousand bucks by now. I don't care though, I enjoyed the whole game watching so fine but since Nate and I started talking again. I bet if I win he'll treat me dinner and if he lose I'll treat him dinner, then sudden death question came  out of his mouth. "When did you ever pay for your own dinner?" Hahaha. It was funny, it became more funnier that it's official that I won.

Anyway, that's all I gotta say and I missed Church today for the game. I have question too... When's the premier of Australia got Talent? And where's Australia's Funniest Video now?

Bye 

Xx 

Nigeltv

Day 11 | Friday | July 19

Started my job today, I sort of felt very welcome. The team is absolutely fantastic (Gary Barlow Style). I loved it, I just hope that the day will come and I will hate someone or I will hate the job. I haven't wore my chef's uniform for ages but I guess when I wore it again today for work. It felt different, excited, and chuffed. I'm so happy, I also found a website that sell Barista Kit. I would love to let them use it all. I would also love to make coffee as well. I found a place where I can have Certificate for Barista and Responsible Service of Gambling which is which nice. I just hope it won't be as expensive as hell.

I found an english shop near my workplace. It was a shocker, I looked all over the city for English shop but never found one, and found one in uptown shire! Shame on you PERTH CBD haha . I group messaged my friend. Nate called me and said buy a golly for myself and he'll pay for it. I now have golly! yay! Also lucky today there only 1 tin left of Tizer. I also wanna buy Manchester United Souvenir. It'd be great for the game tomorrow night.

I just read about Talia from Ellen show. It was devastating, she is very positive, talented and incredible human being. She was positive on her later Vlog telling people about her new cancer and describing it as a THING, like there's really nothing to worry about. I like her so much, she would've been great inspiration to everyone else. I will her vlog and tutorial. It's terrible how an amazing person like her and Cory died in a very painful way. Life is such a misery, like a game in Casino you think you've already won but you're not actually winning, there's no way out!

Anyway, I have nothing to say except from my first day of work, I will blog tomorrow about the game  of A-League All Star VS Manchester United blow-by-blow. I will be residing on England this time, sorry Australia, I'm very looking forward to see Australia win the FIFA World Cup on 2014 in Rio de Janeiro, Brazil. I'm actually looking forward to see the match personally but this time. I gotta play the money with England. I'm so UNaustralian, I'm no longer a bogan! LOL . I wish I live in Sydney right now on in Melbourne so I can fly back home again after the game. It's such an exciting game! My friends and I are betting and guess what? I'm playing agains't all the odds. They are so Australian, though Nate and Brenton are so Unengland. I don't know if that's a word but in Australia if you don't like Neighbour or Home and Away or you don't call you slipper as tongs you are most likely to be called as UNAUSTRALIAN.

thanks
nigeltv xx

Day 10 | Thursday | July 18

10days after I spoke out and almost given up on life. I found a job with the help of my mum's friend. They are absolutely amazing friends of my mum. I thought when I heard the offer yesterday I will be barista as I admire to be one again, or wait staff but I was hired as a chef. I guess I'm wearing toque again but hey I chucked them all out already. Tomorrow I will start by 4pm. I think it's kinda easy as piss. I'm excited, Staff member are mostly Filipino's and they are amazing people. I will working in Han's Cafe Kalamunda. I hope to keep it up for a whilst waiting for us to move in to Melbourne. I can't explain why I'm so happy, maybe I didn't gave up on life and hang on to it though I almost did.

When I was told that I can be in charge for the whole kitchen someday, I was like. Oh no! but when I came to the kitchen I was like. I will change lots of stuff if given the approval even outside the service area. It's not filthy but it's just more complicated to do some stuff with their recent routine than the one I imagine, but who I really am do be such an asshole? I'm nobody. I just wished them I single thing, coffee machine replacement. The Pressure wasn't that good anymore, also I will buy thermometer and pound. I just dont know where to buy one... well actually it made me thing about googling it. I have found one and found it expensive. In my new workplace actually I was asked if I can handle chinese wok. I honestly said no! Im actually focused on French and Italian cooking before, but whatever...



I'm actually speechless right, all I want to do right now is to get my payroll in this job and buy tamper, bang and thermometer. I can get it in my tax return anyway so I wanna buy it and it will be my asset. I love to be barista. The art of coffee is amazing and great.

Anyway I watch Nick Vujicic on telly, I found him as a very good influence not just to the kids but also to elder people as well. I rephrased it but it's the main message, so the following phrase is now Nick.



"When you fall down, you get back up but there's some circumstances in life that when you fall down you feel like you can't back up, but it's just your fear paralyses you. I have no Arms and Legs and it should be impossible for me to get up, if I tried 100 x and fail 100 x, is there any chance for me to get up if you give up? No! It's not the end unless you've given up. You have another chanceto get back up, you just have to try to get back up."

"I can be ANGRY for what I want or be THANKFUL for what I have. You start putting things in temporary HAPPINESS, Escaping reality."

"You have choice which step you want"

"You are PRECIOUS, You are worth more than DIAMONDS who you find LIFE & PURPOSE"

"It doesn't matter if you're good at something or not, but you're good just the way you are, JUST WALK FORWARD"

"If it's impossible for you to do your dream because of some circumstances, Someday you'll do something that you'll love. All things come together for the good"

"The power of ENCOURAGEMENT can save LIFE."

"Nothing really beyond your reach"

"I may need hand to hold my love's hair but I don't need hands to hold my partners HEART."

He is a genius and I want to see him.

This is it for now.

nigeltv xx

Day 9 | Wednesday | July 17

How's everyone doing? That's good. huh?!? Are you asking me too. Ohh aren't you such a darling? I'm good too. I will tell you why, My mum's friend woke up me up offering me a job in Perth. It's kinda good thing. I can go work as wait staff again, I'm missing it and I guess I will make coffee again too. Coffee's fragrance is like perfume to me. It's lovely. Well, also I received 2 phone call from Melbourne for a job interview and 1 email of succession of application in Melbourne and 1 in Perth. The one in Perth is most likely to be the most exciting ever. I will gonna get paid to party! Isn't just like Geordie or Jersey shore. It's perfect to me. I can probably work for 2 jobs. I wouldn't mind at all. It will like my friend Julia who worked as Counterhand too and Bar Staff at night. :) that will be an utter great life. I'm not sure though, because the Melbourne thing is still up. I do appreciate though.

Today I pretty much again as a jobless person I didn't do much at all. I washed all the pots and pans, cleaned the dishes, and the stove tops. I felt very good. I cooked dinner too, and as I can remember this is the first time in a very long  time since the whole family ate dinner. I also watched FRIENDS again and thinking if I finish this article earlier which is quite impossible since I have heaps of things to say I might watch movie from my hard drive. I'm actually devastated since it's just the 17th of the month but my internet is 85% used. I blame the porn. Oh c'mon I'm not perfect, some of us do some dirty stuff too.  haha . That's the only thing I can say. Also I don't know maybe I drew the line between me and a friend. I felt like I did something terrible or she is just busy or something. I want to say sorry but I dont think there is really something I did that made her feel bad. I wanna say sorry but Im afraid she'll be like "You didn't do anything, Im just busy what are you talking about?" and I will be insensitive, because with my friends I only apologise if I attacked directly or I knew I hurt them. 

Now, Im here writing this article with my eye glasses on, I can see more clearer now. I've never wore my glasses in a very long time. It's amazing though. I look like genuinely smart. LOL but nah I'm not. Smart people don't watch rubbish show instead watch show like David Attenborough.  Hang on, I do watch David Attenborough, Im genius! yay. Anyway this is going nowhere, but have you heard about Cory Monteith's cause of Death? Substance Mix. I can't blame him though there's probably too much pressure and stresses thrown upon him as a celebrity.

You know what? writing here everyday made me realise I can probably become a columnist if I just took the right course, not that I regret taking Commercial Cookery and Hospitality. I love it too. It's just I love talking to people and writing blog day by day makes it more easier to communicate, but anyway I have to enjoy what I have. Hey, last night I was the news about Kate Middleton and Prince William and out of nowhere I had a dream about my crush Prince Harry and I woke up with Justin Bieber's face on my phone. Some one sent me the message. I love that person. :) Actually I'm afraid that Justin Bieber will die the same way as Cory Monteith if he didn't stop. It's his life anyway but if he become my boyfriend I will make him stop what he is doing what ever it is, of course he'll do what I want I never had a relationship to a person who don't love me deeply as I will love the person deeply as well. I can say that with full of  confidence since I asked Nate and Brenton to stopped smoking and they did, like they asked me to stop being such a bitch. LOL. 

Anyway, gotta go now. I might watch movie and my Honey Lemon tea is getting cooler, and World's Scariest Drivers is on. 

ciao for now.

nigeltv xx

Day 8 | Tuesday | July 16

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Day 7 | Monday | July 15

Today, I am celebrating a "WEEK"Sary It has been a week since I started writing blog. I am going good. Receiving good feedback/ suggestions and opinions. I really loved it. It's so good. I'm even proud of myself, Never accomplished something, and never enjoyed something. I can probably say with confidence, I have found something that I love that I will never get use too and always going to get something to learn from. yay!

Today on TodayTonight, study shows that around in Perth/Western Australia, unemployment are getting higher. It has been tough, people are encourage to change course in life. It's actually not that easy. It's hard to just change course of job from something you love the most to something you might hate or something you might love that you're never use to do. Certain things has to be done before you can successfully someone else for the sake of living. It's damn difficult. I know that. I have been there and actually I'm still here. From Chef (Hospitality) to Barista/WaitStaff (Retail). It's so difficult. I hope things are changing for good. I love Perth and since we are leaving it. I know that someday I will go back to it. My mates have been talking to me and they said I have to introduce myself as Western Australian and not Victorian. I will surely miss it, I will cry one litre of tears if I leave, I mean fully leave. People say if they left at one place. There is nothing to go back for. For me, not really there is always something left behind. A piece of my heart have to stay in Perth.

Good news! I received 2 phone calls today from the Ads I applied in the job opens in Melbourne. Good thing they allowed me to take my time. They asked me to call them if I arrive in Melbourne and I should not rush. I'm now really excited to leave. I talked to Maria and she has been a good friend. She's trying to make me stay in Perth. I know she love me, but there's always THE END in the story, and my employment in Perth reaches THE END, maybe I have Interview tomorrow at 12:30pm in Perth and I will do my best to impress the guy. I know it's 7 weeks employment but who cares, It will worth every penny it will cost and help me to move from here to Victoria. I'm really excited. I haven't said anything to Nate though. I will face it if it's already set. I was talking to my mates thing morning when they brought up Geelong and Melbourne CBD. They said Summer is totally different from Perth. It's just warm and not intensely hot, and Winter is Extremely Freezing than in Perth. Though, I came from a tropical country. I hate summer before, but when I arrived here, I was static because Beach is just a reach of your hand. I hope that will be the situation in Melbourne because I love beaches. In the country where I came from, 36 is the hottest ever but it's hotter than 45 in Perth. So that's why I hated it, and thought I will love winter, but that's not it. I dont actually hate winter. I prefer summer than winter, with the beach and surfing. It's absolutely perfect.

Anyways, most of these days I don't feel much of a stress. I just mind myself, Im kinda being selfish. I might have less money than before but I got more friends and supporter than ever. I thank you for being part of it. Keep reading because I will keep writing.

nigeltv

xx

Day 6 | Sunday | July 14

Last night, I cried over a movie "Marley and Me" Starring Owen Wilson and Jennifer Aniston. I actually thought it's a comedy film, until my dad spoilt it to me last night. I'm crying because Im happy for Marley, He died being Loved by the family he grew old with. I cried so much when Jennifer Aniston gave the necklace and said Their Family started beyond times already.  I was touched! I think I will see the movie again every time I need to be emotional.

Just today, Today the world turned upside down with the heart breaking news of Cory Monteith's death. The whole world was shock with this terrifying news. He is such a talented man. He is mostly known from the Hit TV Series GLEE, also played in the movie Monte Carlo which where I loved him for being so sweet. He is a good singer and also a good actor, Imagine how life can sometimes be unfair and take away some precious person in the world who has the only intention of entertaining people. Cory where ever you are. We GLEEKS love you. 

I didn't do much today, Well, Im still thinking of flying to Melbourne, I just had a message from some guy in Gay community, He wanted to meet me. I don't know what for but I'm sensing it's for a good purpose. I hope this person will give me a job in Perth. If I have the chance to choose, I would choose Perth, I know Perth is very isolated and way behind all the state but I already have a friend in here and also I found the love of my life(Im not sure if Im his). Perth is such an amazing state, it has it's own originality. It doesn't matter if Perth doesn't have Starbucks and Krispy Kreme. It's Perth, people here are different, but Im not putting all my hopes up in Perth anyway, I already day dreamt about Melbourne and twinks in there (Wink, Wink). Sure I will miss my mates, All of them who treated me right. My brother's from another mother. There are heaps of them but it's not always really about the distance isn't? Im scared though, Like Rachel Green from FRIENDS when she has no where to go and nothing in her pocket, she was pushed to live his Rich and Famous life and work her ass off to get what she wants. I remember on the last season where she is about to live New York for Paris, she said to Ross that she is Scared when she started to live in New York on her own but it's Excited Scared Feelings. I'm not imaging to my mind that my life will be like her. Im trying to say that, that's what Im feeling right now. Im 21 years old and still lives with my parents. Im not saying that it's a terrible idea, Bradley Cooper lives with his Parents. I condone that. He spends the best time of his life with his Parents, So do I. It's just maybe because it will be the first time I will be doing this. I know my parents would follow but I never really been alone. I want to do something for myself but I always got chicken out. You know I'm quite surprise that doing this doesn't makes me want to quit. I actually wants to keep on writing. It's fun and amazing.

I'm actually suppose to visit a friend. Im still deciding if Im going to. He'll pay for the beer anyway. In his house anyway, but I never really get use to ask someone to pay for my date, Madison might read this so I will be honest. I asked most of my dates to pay for the dinner or my liquor. I dont smoke so it's fine. LOL . 

I'm not feeling down at the moment. Adele inspires me everyday. Now Im listening to her again. I want to be like her, She has good quality but she is not perfect but most of us respects her. I don't know why I'm saying this, maybe because I want to be respected like her. That's why I hate Joan River. Im not gonna insult her because like Adele who didn't said anything. It will make me the villain.

nigeltv

xx

Day 5 | Saturday | July 13

Look guys, it's 2:15am. I just had a conversation with a friend, well at least that how I thought we are. He called me some piece of advice, As a friend. I know it would be better to, you know be honest and tell what he should hear from you. I know Im treated him as a friend but I wouldn't let him ruin a fantastic family, for the sake of his happiness. I know I've been terrible giving advices but, I can't afford to imagine him regretting for what he has done and how miserable the kids would be blaming him for ruining their family. I know I was going in right direction, I know it's not a nice word to advice, but I said it's an advice as a friend. It just made me upset when I heard him say First of all, you are not my friend. We just hang out, I dont even like you.

I know love hurts but when friendship was broken, it's like a broken pot. You can glue it all up together but there will always be something's going to be missing part.


Anyway, I received a phone call this 1pm, A company in Melbourne willing to hire me. I'm kinda excited, but scared. I don't know what should I do if I arrive there? I want to hands out resumes too. I don't know what to do. I'm actually speechless. This one paragraph actually took me 12 minutes to finish, that I dont know what to say. I'm excited but hey, I dont know what to do? I should be probably searching for flights to go in Melbourne. Found on. It took me 10 seconds to find a flight, than to say something. Now Im planning not to think about it. I wanna go to a mates house and drink. I'm being such an awful person.

I need help! What should I do?

xx
nigeltv

Day 4 | Friday | July 12

Today, I woke up early although my parents was in a good mood, maybe because I asked to listen to the Hypnosis that I just recently started as well [it worked( wink, wink)]. I was in my couch doing completely nothing, day dreaming but it doesn't really change a thing if Im just gonna keep dreaming without moving my ass out.

Now, Im here in my room, in front of the computer, hoping that someone emailed me with good feedback and wanting me for interview, but no. I guess company has been looking for people who is over qualified now because it's really hard to gamble money employing people, but I started searching for a job in Melbourne. It was stunning. It's like Pool of Hospitality Job. I started sending email, I hope someone will try to contact me sooner. I really need a job. If probably someone gonna call me, My dad and I will pack up our staff and head the road to drive to go to Melbourne. I'm excited, really. As my friend Katie told me, Changes is exciting like HOLIDAY. It really helped me when she said that. I was absolutely nervous but now it's nervous but excited.

I want to change something in my life, I imagined last night, If I found a job in Melbourne that I will love. I was chuffed that something will really change, chuffed as how I change my room the way it looks.

Remember when I said Im getting bored on things easily mostly if I don't get any benefits from it? Well, I'm honestly bored writing but it kinda really helps also, Someone special to me called me and told me, what I do is very inspirational, Cluelessly I have no idea why it's Inspirational. Also, everytime I log in and see how many audience I get daily made me want to write more.


Anyway, some guy emailed me and asked me how's it going with me and Nate. I have to say it's still flat between me and him. I don't really know what to do. I'm trying to focus on one thing, one thing only then if one thing is gone, I will start to think about the next, because putting more things in my mind is completely fine but if it's something terrible, it will drive people crazy and devastated.


Anyway, I heard and saw this Music Video from this YouTube Singer who sang "All-American Boy by Steve Grand"

All-American Boy - YouTube

Click the link to watch.

The message of the song is so realistic, It really features life of a Gay person who fell in love with his Straight Friend. It's awful but it's real.


Maybe this is it for today but who knows, it's still early, I might add some up later, well if you must. I Slow Cooked then Roast Chooks today. It taste good, Healthy too. Since I started Hypnosis my bad eating habit have been better. Last night mum bought Onion Rings from Hungry Jacks (Burger King). Smelt good but really I fought against the lust. :) It's good aye? In our fridge mum made some Macaroni Salad, Maybe, if Hypnosis didn't ever exist, that salad won't last more than 3 days to me, but it's still there. I have Kool-Aid too, since I started hypnosis I drink 1 Venti size Kool-Aid in 3 days. and I mostly drink water.


I have said my farewell, didn't I? well this is really it.


BYEEEE!
nigeltv

xx

His Confession

As I promised, I will tell you the story of my break up with Nate, Im not asking for any sides here, It's much more of my fault but Im writing this to express my admiration to him that after all he still loves me. 

One day, I found a guy named Zack, I posted on my twitter that I have a date and I like him, Im very chuffed about it. As soon as I went home, Nate told me that we have to talk. He told me that he still loves me. He told me that it's not really the job that made him fly to London on his own, Its us. He want to get over me. I said "Well, it wouldn't has to happen if you didn't cheated on me" then it all came clear to me. He said he let me believed that he cheated on me though he didn't, he did it for my own sake. Every time I phone him from work. I always whinge about how I should be working in Perth. So that's when he came up to the idea that he'll never tell me that he's out, though with all the pictures online showing he is out drinking, made me think that he is cheating on me. The last time I caught him was when I was in the city out socialising when I came to the pub where we use to go he is there but told me he is in bed trying to get a goodnight sleep. I conclude that he is cheating on me, The question really is, have I seen him kissed anyone else? have I seen him flirting on those picture? Not really. No! I haven't. I ruined my relationship with him, after 2 month, Nate decided to fly all the way to London with his Nan because he said he found a better job, he told me that he'll be waiting for me there. Anyway, I never cut the ties between my ex-boyfriend so that's why he even afford to say goodbye to me. then after 3 weeks. I saw him got picked by his sister. I asked all of my friend why he is back. Nate wanted to hide from me though he kept getting updates from our friend. I have to say, I looked for attention during those times. I found Brenton, though all along it's not really serious relationship because I'm still hung up on Nate. then Nate told me he didn't left Perth for  job, He left to get over me as I said but decided to head back because thinking how devastated I am without him kills him, or even imagine me being happy without him kills him, then he told me that he still loves me, he still wants to be with me. I didn't know what to say so I let him walked away,

The Next day, I don't know what to do . Im confused but happy. So I looked all over for him, until I remember he might be on out special place. He was there! but he took off again. When I found him I told him I still love him straight away. I told him how badly I want him back. 

2 weeks later, we have spoke until the other day. He invited me to meet the guy he is dating. It kills me, but I know he is doing it to make me jealous. He doesn't even know the name of the guy. 

I decided to bring myself to his room to watch because Im so jealous in any minute I would burst and tell off the guy, Until Nate asked me to leave his room because they need it. Rudely I opened the door and asked the guy to leave immediately and told Nate that we need to talk. I told him that we should be back and I am dying to feel his warm body against mine again, to kiss his cotton soft lips. He laughed and ask me if I wanted pizza, If Im a quite person. He is more worst than me. So all I thought is that we are okay, until he asked me what pizza I want. I figured he is drunk, because all my friend know, I don't eat any other pizza except from Plain Cheese Pizza. So if someone wants to send some pizza over. Its the cheapest pizza. Plain Cheese Pizza. Anyways, The next morning my friend asked me if he got home safely, when I asked him how is he doing. He didn't talk to me instead pull out a face. He didn't probably remember. So now I am writing this letter reminiscing how we met and how we handled our friendship-relationship-friendship-courtship-and now is a question mark.

See, It's my fault. Im selfish bitch! :) xx

nigeltv