One day, I found a guy named Zack, I posted on my twitter that I have a date and I like him, Im very chuffed about it. As soon as I went home, Nate told me that we have to talk. He told me that he still loves me. He told me that it's not really the job that made him fly to London on his own, Its us. He want to get over me. I said "Well, it wouldn't has to happen if you didn't cheated on me" then it all came clear to me. He said he let me believed that he cheated on me though he didn't, he did it for my own sake. Every time I phone him from work. I always whinge about how I should be working in Perth. So that's when he came up to the idea that he'll never tell me that he's out, though with all the pictures online showing he is out drinking, made me think that he is cheating on me. The last time I caught him was when I was in the city out socialising when I came to the pub where we use to go he is there but told me he is in bed trying to get a goodnight sleep. I conclude that he is cheating on me, The question really is, have I seen him kissed anyone else? have I seen him flirting on those picture? Not really. No! I haven't. I ruined my relationship with him, after 2 month, Nate decided to fly all the way to London with his Nan because he said he found a better job, he told me that he'll be waiting for me there. Anyway, I never cut the ties between my ex-boyfriend so that's why he even afford to say goodbye to me. then after 3 weeks. I saw him got picked by his sister. I asked all of my friend why he is back. Nate wanted to hide from me though he kept getting updates from our friend. I have to say, I looked for attention during those times. I found Brenton, though all along it's not really serious relationship because I'm still hung up on Nate. then Nate told me he didn't left Perth for job, He left to get over me as I said but decided to head back because thinking how devastated I am without him kills him, or even imagine me being happy without him kills him, then he told me that he still loves me, he still wants to be with me. I didn't know what to say so I let him walked away,
The Next day, I don't know what to do . Im confused but happy. So I looked all over for him, until I remember he might be on out special place. He was there! but he took off again. When I found him I told him I still love him straight away. I told him how badly I want him back.
2 weeks later, we have spoke until the other day. He invited me to meet the guy he is dating. It kills me, but I know he is doing it to make me jealous. He doesn't even know the name of the guy.
I decided to bring myself to his room to watch because Im so jealous in any minute I would burst and tell off the guy, Until Nate asked me to leave his room because they need it. Rudely I opened the door and asked the guy to leave immediately and told Nate that we need to talk. I told him that we should be back and I am dying to feel his warm body against mine again, to kiss his cotton soft lips. He laughed and ask me if I wanted pizza, If Im a quite person. He is more worst than me. So all I thought is that we are okay, until he asked me what pizza I want. I figured he is drunk, because all my friend know, I don't eat any other pizza except from Plain Cheese Pizza. So if someone wants to send some pizza over. Its the cheapest pizza. Plain Cheese Pizza. Anyways, The next morning my friend asked me if he got home safely, when I asked him how is he doing. He didn't talk to me instead pull out a face. He didn't probably remember. So now I am writing this letter reminiscing how we met and how we handled our friendship-relationship-friendship-courtship-and now is a question mark.
See, It's my fault. Im selfish bitch! :) xx
nigeltv
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